communication breakdown!!

...xfhm la..
nape la begini jadinye..dulu ok je.. if anything juz pop up asking me... skang ni? Maen teragak2.. nk jalan skali pon cam bersalah je gayanye.. knape? aku lgsung xfham ni..no idea at all..
bile dah berdua, maen senyap je.. tnye pon cam org baru knal..

cam ni dialog nye
A ; ,,..mm skang dah pkul bpe ea?
a : dah pkul 4 .nape ye??
A : Xde pape.. saje tnye..
a : ..owh...ok!

aduyaii.. pelik tul la.. tlg la jgn maen2 bnda camni.. mlibatkan hati nurani susah wor..
sy nie seorang yg cpt esau.so, plsss make it clear for me... so i can make things rite..
before things going worst or pkara2 xdiingini muncul..tolong la ye..

hurmm lapor laks..jiran sblah dah masak gaknye..bau aroma sup ayam dah neyh..
ishk pose2 nie..kuat tol deria bau sy hihihi..

nk mkn murtabak la jap lagi mase buka pose..nk nk nk?? meh ar sni mkn sesame..

did missing u.. now?? u'll regret for what u did to me

Today I m feeling so low as you are not with me,
I miss u every moment wherever I may be.

My mind sets no where and just thinks about you,
I wanna talk a lot with you but our talks are due.

My lips are trembling and calling your name,
I cannot see you in front of me and I m going through this pain.

My tears are in trauma should they flow out or lay inside,
they want to roll down my cheeks but could not decide.

My one hand holds the other as it cannot hold yours,
It wanders for only your warm touch , I m sure.

My heart beats gets faster wishing you might be here,
giving me the feel of joy, love and care.

How much I love you is all i know,
i just feel it and I dont want to show.

I miss you with every beat of my heart, no doubt
you are the only one of whom i can think about.....


haha mmg best ayat2 ni..bile tgh feeling..sume khazanah vocabulary kuar..satu satu ..sampai aku pon x caye ..tp suma tu cam worthless..
i did regret but think back lately..i have to appreciate for what had happen.
thank you dear..
i made myself coLd againn!!

stupidity of mine

...aaghh mmg tgh marah sgt2 skg nie.. dah xleh nk taip satu2 pekataan cam dlm novel or buku yg ada kt kdai buku tu..
marah?? marah dgn orang laen?? takkkkk.... mne leh nk marah ngn org! bnda yg paling aku xtahan if aku sndri wat mistake tu!! arrrrghh *S---........ how cud this happen to me! stupid! rse nk guling2 jerit..\

knape la aku leh terpikir smpai kesitu?sgt la xleh blaa..
wait wait...
tapi kan.. bnda nie spontan,bukan leh nk controL.

oNce u feeL it.. u just feel it..
smua ni dah terjadi..
play with my feeling arent u???huh! smpai skg xleh nk reveal lg ape bnda yg wat aku marah ni..adoi.. hampeh tol la aku nie..

cpat sgt prasan.. eeeeeeeeii malu pon ada. ceyh )(*&^^%%@

ok ok.. pasni, aku akan pastikan bnda nie x jadi lagi kt dri aku..
salah aku gak.. maen kata2 sgt ngn dye! dush dushh~..\

haha pasni..start to be new me, no mercy punye. lantak ar
but.. boleh ke aku ni??

arrrrghhhhhhhh``~damn

confession

confession of mine will be forever ,no doubt or turning back.
knowing you make me realize bout love,sadness, missing someone
when you not around, make me think deeply bout life, how am i going to explain this through word? ..i juz can't loosing you ,i just can detect whats going wrong when you doing something which is not as usual,
i know, u strong and willing to do what you really want to prove, but i just cant let u go,
i want u like before..i want you to share every single things with me. becoz; i;m happy when u remember me.

i'm afraid to be near you, i'm afraid to hold you, eventhough deep inside me, dying to do so, we rather hurt each other and think ,thats the best for us.
I cannot just stand watching you like that, but.. still ...what can i do?? am afraid,
hessitate in every action ,every step toward you,to be close with you.

i dont want to let u go ..NO, never.

i just want u to understand.i try too much..dont do this to me ,
i feel the pain, i'm down each time you say 'nothing'..

and with this vow, i will smiLe owez looking at you, hoping all the great
things granted you my dear. this is not the madness but its heart binding ,i try to find teory or hypotessis why this could happen to me,,and the result is nil.

i dont care what peoPLe say, they can't simply judge..
this is not typical "love'
sayang,kasih,suka, or what soever...its just define by heart when u feel it.

someone says that,i should 'nt have worry too much ..
true..but how am i wanna stop my heart,my mind to not ever think about u.

sumtimes, i mad to myself..why should i think about you, because maybe u dont care about me at all. perhaps u have someone else .yeap!!..thats the answer,
someone else..me?? not listed anymore...knowing that make me broken into pieces.
i never regret knowing you,luving u, sharing all this while..thank you.


Am weak.. am weak when its comes about you. damn true. cannot ressist you.. ehemm not YOU.. definitely maybe~
let me keep to myself as secreto de'amor....

haha.. laugh n tears
please dont do this to me.
longing to hold u.

............We can only learn to love by loving.